:)
I'm a little sad. I was a lot sad before, but now I'm kinda okay. haha And its not over something thats so big either.
I missed my lab today, its a 4-hour lab that only happens once a week, and its also my hardest class I'm taking right now. I'm not sure if the notoriety of Bio 1AL has produced much of an infamous reputation outside of Berkeley, but its a hard class. And its the class that I study for - practically only!! hahaha X_X
But yes, I stayed up til 8:30 a.m. last night reading, prepping, doing my pre-lab and lab and then took a "30-minute nap" ... until I woke up to hazy rays of sunshine, close to 2 o'clock p.m. And its supposed to rain today-darn it! lol But hazy rays of sunshine were so warm and lovely~~~  until you realize the time that passed for them to become so hazy and warm T.T and then you miss the really cold, stark peace of the morning, but not really, cuz you were still awake when THAT happened. hahah cyclical logic forming..!

Frantically, I typed out an email to the bio 1AL professor (not knowing I was typing it to him and began with: To whom it may concern). Here's my really ugly email that I typed as I looked up from a left-over burrito:

To Whom it may concern,
Hello. My name is Teresa Hahm, a Bio 1AL student from Section #120.
Because I was ill, I was unable to wake up and attend my lab section this
morning, Friday, from 9 a.m.-12 p.m. Is there any way at all to make up
this lab? The syllabus says to list other times of availability, however,
I believe the Friday labs are the last labs. I'm sorry for this
inconvenience.
Thank you for your time!

Sincerely,
Teresa Hahm

Yeah, I was a little sick this week- sniffling, coughing, irritated throat, no sleep? but, I was in no case ILL.
So, bad me. :( I've written emails to professors before, with much more embarassing excuses like this one lol over the summer for my Sociology class:

Dear Professor Powers,
Because I didn’t put on my alarm properly (again-there seems to be a
technical default in my cellphone), I woke up at 11:30, right when class
ended.
There were no extenuating circumstances.
I acknowledge that this is a paltry reason, if a reason at all, thus my
reluctance in emailing you. However, I hope that I'll be granted another
chance to make up for it. And, I completely understand if a make-up is not
a possibility for me. Thank you again for your consideration!

Sincerely, Teresa

Now, ... I don't know if I want to disclose this online haha. so uh let me know if you want to know what I asked to make-up. haha
But you see... This email was completely sincere- like I just straight out told him, I didn't wake up O_O
Well, I guess having a smaller class size and trying to participate in class also helps alot, but still, wha tbothered me most was the ILL part =[ Because when I wrote the other emails, I was SURE that my prof. would say tough luck, and spent hours on them. So, even if telling the whole truth hurt, I knew that God would know that I was upholding integrity.
Also, I didn't really try to lie real too hard. It was obvious that I wasn't really sick.

Humility. Oh man. Having been given chances from summer doesn't mean it'll happen every time.
I didn't really procrastinate, except maybe saturday, sunday when we hung out til 7 a.m. but it was fun
wednesday- 2 midterms, at decal, tried to do everything, send out emails for my decal, provide food, make food, prepare an adequate intro for our guest speaker, whole decal went well... stayed out til 1 talking about intelligent design (peter leader, agnis, john =])
thursday-small group, came earlier, stayed later, helped roommate with anatomy midterm for an hour or 2, til 3 or 4 a.m. haha learned a new song about the longest muscle in the body - sartorious!!  
But then again, these times are so precious to me. These times I will remember most when I graduate from college. And its for these times that I should work for. (ok, teresa?)
My only complaint is my lack of integrity in my email, and my lack of will power toward 8. And maybe my lack of wisdom ... Like if I only didn't stay up til 6 a.m. on sunday, I could've made it to my decal meeting, had less to do on wednesday, had more time to do my lab, etc., etc., Isn't it funny how ripples in the sea build into monstrous waves that crash on the land? 
I need to be careful or I will activate an atomic bomb. (maybe that's too crazy haha)

But another thing is, even if those waves come, I should have rode it through!! like I did last week, going to lab with no hours of sleep at all!

Yes I'm dissapointed. in me self. There's some good in this though. I got some sleep HAHAHA just kidding.
I uh need to get going. Small group night tonight. I love you! lol random. thank you for reading. xanga =]
I would've been moping by myself, but its good to organize my thoughts ^^ and see the bigger picture =]
and be loved =]
yeah, so I didn't really summarize what i learned, but I gotta go.
=]
I'm late! lol
so I'm going to run now. ride them waves O_o and uh not Make them in the first place.
oh yeah, and thanks to my 2 room mates who comforted me a lot =]
okay really already 3 minutes late ! argh
here I go! bye!

How can miracles be possible?
    Some typical responses people make of the miraculous:

° "For nothing can happen without cause; nothing happens that cannot happen, and when what was capable of happening has happened, it may not be interpreted as a miracle. Consequently, there are no miracles...We therefore draw this conclusion: what was capable of happening is not a miracle" (Cicero, De Divinations)
° "For example, there is the record of the life of Jesus Christ in the bible. That record contained accounts of events which, in  light of the facts of the natural order which were known, could not possibly have happened.
Children are not born to virgins, angels do not bring messages to people, men do not walk on water, people who die do not return to life, and so on.
The story of Jesus Christ was filled with what men had learned were impossibilities; therefore, the story could not be a literal account of the actual happenings.
When the New Testament was written, men may have been naive enough to believe the things that were said about Jesus, and they may have seen no contradiction between the reports and their knowledge of the world, but not all was otherwise. (Protestantism, cited by J. Leslie Dunstan)

Many people laugh at the possibility of miracles. They argue that miracles are a violation of scientific laws, and are therefore unacceptable to modern man.
However, the Bible is filled with stories of the miraculous, from one end to the other. There are accounts where blind people immediately receive sight, dead people are raised back to life, and extroadinary events among nature occur, such as the parting of the Red Sea and a universal flood.

The basis of believing in the miraculous goes back to the biblical conception of God. The first verse of the Bible says, "in the beginning God created the heavens and the earth."

If this verse can be accepted at face value, that an infinite-personal God created the universe, then the rest should not be a problem. If He has the ability to do this, then a virgin birth, walking on water, feeding the 5,000 people with a few loaves and fish, and the other biblical miracles, become not only possible but expected.
As the Apostle Paul once said to an unbelieving king, "Why should it be thought a thing incredible with you, that God should raise the dead?"

So behind this imortant question is the familiar issue of whether or not God exists. For if there is a God, then certainly miracles are possible. In fact, the very nature of the question: "How can miracles be possible" presupposes there is a God, for a miracle is an act of God.

As for the idea that miracles violate natural or scientific laws, we must remember that scientific laws neither dictate events nor do they explain them. They are merely a generalization about observable causes and effects.

One cannot reject the claim of the parting of the Red Sea 3,500 years ago by noting that this event does not happen every day. Appealing to the laws of nature to refute the miraculous will not work, since the Bible teaches that an all-powerful God has broken into the natural order from time to time with His mighty acts.
A miracle is by definition an event that is unique and without a precedent. it is impossible to account for it as we do other events. The proper way of determining if something ahppened is not whether w can explain it. The first question to be asked isn ot can it happen, but rather did it happen?
if an event can be determined as having happened yet it defies explanation, we still have to admit to the fact that it happened, explanation or not. The evidence for biblical miracles is as powerful historically as other historical events (such as the fall of rome and the conquests of Alexander the Great). Just because miracles are outside of our normal daily experience does not mean that they have not occurred and do not occur.
Thus, when all the evidence is taken into account, there are excellent reasosn for believing not only in the possibility of miracles but also in their actuality.

(taken from Josh McDowell and Don Stewart's Answers)
to be edited for me, but for you as ref. as in you, reader.